(P) I woke up this morning excited to read my Bible. This is something that has not happened in a while. As always, as I read, I wondered why it is so hard for me to pick up this book and why I don't do it more often. The usual undisciplined, arrogant, sinful places of my heart answer with a resounding, "you know perfectly well why not." Then from another well-intentioned corner, "get it together Tricia, you are better than that." But again, arrogance.
This little battle is a great reminder of how much I desperately need Jesus! I need Him to fill me up, to motivate, to empassion, to remind me of my sin, and to help me desire humility and love above control and comfort. Lately I have taken a look at my life and wondered, "what if we were leaving tomorrow?" This journey that we are being lead on and into, what if it skipped ahead and it was time to advertise ourselves as 'missionaries' right now? The answer is that I would be embarrassed to claim the title. I work in customer service. As people come through to get their daily coffee, I am quick to judge by appearances and slow to consider the state of their heart, slow to see them as sought after and loved by their Creator. I am arrogant when it comes to controlling my little world, I am often a slave to comfort, prayer is often a last resort, and the list could go on for pages. (Alex could make his own list too.) In all this I see two things. First, God has a lot of work to do in us. Fortunately he is big enough to handle us, and has put people in our life to help us along the way. Second, it seems that God likes to use people who do not 'have it all together' to accomplish His goals. Therefore, I can find hope rather than despair in seeing my sin. It is certainly a good thing that we are not shipping overseas tomorrow. In the mean time, perhaps you could pray with us that we would continue to remember we don't have it all together and allow that knowledge to keep us learning and growing with humility. Of course we will never 'arrive' spiritually, but knowing we need Him to change our hearts seems like a good place to start.
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